Change on Purpose

July 22, 2014
I've got crap in my life. I'm a screw-up. I hold grudges. I bend the truth. I'm opinionated and rub it in people's faces. I break things and try to hide them so no one finds out. I take so much pride in my work that I unfairly criticize the honest work of others. I […]

I've got crap in my life.

I'm a screw-up. I hold grudges. I bend the truth. I'm opinionated and rub it in people's faces. I break things and try to hide them so no one finds out. I take so much pride in my work that I unfairly criticize the honest work of others. I have a temper, and when I get angry, I become irrational, almost violent at times.

I'm discontent with myself. I hunger for more, for better.

God expects me to be a much different kind of person. Jesus Christ, the model of Christianity, demonstrated perfect love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, gentleness, and self-control.

Maybe my expectations for myself are too high, but I strive for the perfection that Christ modeled. And I am far from it.

One thing that I have learned along the way, though, is this:

Change doesn't happen on accident.

If I want to better represent Christ, I have to pursue it intentionally.

To overcome my pride, I have to respect the work of others. So I try to step back from myself and honestly evaluate their work. I look at their level of experience, at the amount of time that they had to invest in the work, and at the degree of training that they've had. And usually I find that, for their situation, they did a pretty remarkable job. Probably better than I would have done in the same situation.

To overcome my anger, I have to understand the perspective of others. So I try to step back from myself and see their history. I look at how they were raised, what their life experiences have taught them, and what issues they have in their lives currently. I also have to look at myself. Did my words, tone, actions, or body language convey a message that I didn't intend? Usually, the answer is yes.

I know God forgives my misdeeds, but I desire to be as close to him as possible. And I know that I'm not going to wake up one morning and suddenly have it all together, so I take each step at a time.

One deliberate step at a time.

 

Randall J. Greene


My heart beats for my faith, my God, my wife, and our puppy. I am a web strategist by day, but I identify as a writer. Occasionally I also lead classes and conversation groups at my church. I completed a Master of Arts in Theological Studies from Central Baptist Theological Seminary.

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